For my Small Little World

A Small Little World for everyone.. each one doing their own work and minding their own.. their worlds limiting to their priorities...there are no rules.. nobody is forced to represent anything other than the human race.. no one is forced to identify themselves with any group.. with any product.. with any idea...individuals have their own identity.. self identity...it is Bliss..

But nowadays the idea is BIG...grouping together...

Things are different here....

alone...small....efficient..free..creative..unique... (vs)

big....scale..inefficiency..rules..uniformity..robotic..identity assasination...competition...jealousy...greed...war...genocides..terrorism...

Is BIG good?

• Good for advertizers who want to sell their idea to a group of people rather than individuals to save their money
• Good for religion which wants to sell its propoganda to as many groups as possible and spread itself
• Good for organizations which want to minimize costs on managing people by imposing stricter rules
• Good for politics which needs everyone to be the same and follow the same
• Good for people who want power and control

Good for anything in this world other than the individual himself....It breeds control and power... It takes away individual freedom...takes away peace....

Let us look at these:

• What is common good? will everyone have a common idea about what is good? really?
• Is World order an idea to get the world in order? Then what is it? Will it achieve it? is it good for you?
• Do you agree that the sum of outputs that the members in a team are capable of is less than the output produced by a team working together? Did you observe it practically? In a team did you always observe people helping each other wilfully (without thinking of the rewards by doing so)?
• What is your identity apart from being a part of a group or organization or idea or religion? Forget them, do you agree that most of the times you want the dress you wear or the vehicle you drive or the place you are in define your identity?

More operational questions:

• How many times were you glad that you entered a bus or train which had a lot of rush?
• How many times did you go alone to a scenic place and feel alive after a long time?
• How many times were you forced to work with or talk to someone when you didnt want to?

Lots of questions...

I thought about these questions and realized that we need a Small Little World..a person's own...his ideas...his passions..his stupidities..all his positives and negatives defined by his values and principles...without identifying with anything else and without comparing with anyone else... He has to find his Small Little World in all this mess!!

Confused in life? Not anymore!

Living foolish is better than living confused. It is better to live like a fool than to get confused by the knowledge (only half) of so many things. But we can’t help.
Life teaches you so many things you were better off not knowing!

If you read the science and health news in newspapers, one day you will find research results saying that Caffeine is harmful to you and it will increase your chances of heart disease and another day at the same place you will find another research report saying that it will help prevent cancer. So better dont read about it unless there is a message on the coffee cup - Drinking coffee is injurious to health!You can see similar news about Non-vegetarian food and a lot of other things.
Coming to my case, I used to have discussions with my friends on what gives happiness and very proudly used to tell things like ‘it’s all in your mind’, ‘if you want to be happy you can be happy with anything’ etc. I really believed in that then. At the same time I used to support Capitalism (which doesnt support contentment :)) arguing against Communism saying that it promotes mediocrity. I believed in that too (I just finished reading ‘The fountainhead’ then). On careful observation you can find that both are almost contradicting each other. If you are content with what you have without a passion to succeed, will you survive in this world of MONEY? So it is very common for any thinking person to get confused, discontent and most of the times frustrated in this world of contradictions.
Now I think I know the solution for this riddle (may be customized but some solution rite). You may be confused about the path to choose in life but there are certain basic principles and values that are instilled in us from childhood that will guide us in choosing it and pursuing it. So go find the path (as if that’s so easy :)). Don’t worry about the worthiness of the pursuit and the path. If you enjoy the pursuit you will never regret the choice. Just believe in it!

I believe that the luckiest people in the world are those who realize their passion and who get the opportunity to live it. Some people prefer to use ‘purpose’ in place of passion. People with passion, who had chosen their principles and stood by them strongly, were the people who made history. Not very long ago I was lucky enough to realize my passion (you may think I am fooling myself) after contemplating and getting diverted by so many things like looking at the lives of actors, cricket players etc who are being marketed as the role models. And now I have to look for the opportunities to prove myself in it and enjoy life my own way.

a toast for a genius

That was the time when my grandpa was still able to bear me on his lap.i was just 9 years old and i used to be cute(from credible sources).My grandpa was a cricket freak and his sons and grandsons followed him and even excelled him: still as cricket freaks.It is one of the earlier days i remember myself seeing a cricket match.
I dont remember who were playing or who won.But i know that it made an impact on many of my thoughts and afterthoughts.

Indian batsmen are known to put the opposition back into the game when everything seems to be going their way in most of the games.I think there is a reason behind that.They believe in the capabilities of the opposition more than in themselves.But then in that game i saw a teenager who looked very different from the rest.
He never allowed the bowler take the lead.He defied their prominence.
He possesed a trait which impressed me a lot and still keeps impressing me now and that is his AGRESSIVENESS and his defiance to dominance.

Heriditarily or as a matter of fact i too became a cricket freak and i used to see almost all the matches played by india.And every time i saw a match my awe for his ability and character increased exponentially.I loved the way he put himself in a separate level of class and brilliance.

As i grew into my teens,my view of things changed but the veneration still remained.By then he claimed for himself a rightful place in the clan of legends.the world realised his genius.

When i hear the word "genius" i dont think it is just a quality of a person.It is something more than that.It has an element of beauty in it.It has an element of extraneousness.This great thing is beyond the person we see.It is not just einstein or someone else,it is beyond them.
now,i loved that..i forget everything else when i see that beauty which brings bliss to my eyes and a "wow" from my mouth every time he hits a shot with near perfection...his ability to challenge the benchmarks(read records)..his impeccable timing...the way he ridiculed every opposition bowler who must have thought there is atleast a slight probability of getting him out...and most amusing of all,the way he made them look stupid.
This is what had got me becharmed more than anything else.

It may look doltish on my part when i say that i used to switch off my television when he gets out,but i watched most of the matches only for that part when india were sure to be on the top.I didnt want to see some loser come and replace his position as the next batsman and make all the work done go to the gallows.And the ridiculous thing is that people blame him for the loss,for all he had done.SHAME ON THEM.

whenever he plays he makes the task look very easy which some lower mortal may think is a work for the atlas' shoulders.This is the difference he makes.

The screen showing him lift his bat every time he crosses over the three figure mark has been taken for granted:)and whenever he fails(i dont agree with this word in his context),people who have a fallacious memory tend to criticise him.
Dont they remember the way he carried the burden of indian batting for a decade and very seldom failed them? Dont they have any sort of respect for his extraordinary ability? why do they keep comparing him on averages with other people who at best can be "run machines" but not geniuses? plzz dont compare him plzz.He deserves much more than that.
I personally dont think batting is only about making runs.it is also an art which can be perfected only by mozarts or beethovens or bradmans.the way he turns the ball to every corner of the ground for singles.the way he uses his feet to dictate terms.the square cut-which whizzed past the gr8 jonty rhodes who at that instant had become stupidly helpless.
The paddle sweep- an innovation yet to be perfected by someone else
The pull shot-for shane warne which brought nightmares and
The more recent hop sending the ball over the square-offside rope to get the shit out of the rawalpindi express.
Who can forget these exploits and if they forget then they dont enjoy anything on earth leave alone batting.
Now he has moved into his thirties and i feel very sad that he can provide it only for a few more years.At the same time i feel very proud to be born on his era which i consider is an era when indian batting has claimed more audience than ever...isnt it because of him...or is it because of gangulies and dravids or whoever looked swamped when he batted on the other side of the pitch..think about it..

Friends

i am the one. Dont mistake this statement to the one u must have heard in the MATRIX. But i am the one: called yeshwanth (though it may sound rare in the southern part of india, i like my name)

whenever i think of my name which means a person who is famous,i know i belie it. Till today i didnt do anything which wud have made me famous. But i am very optimistic about the future:)

i was born in india in the southern state of andhrapradesh, in a city called vijayawada(though it was a town when i was born). Both my parents are government employees and both work in vijayawada. I have a bro who is doing his 10th standard. I njoy teasing him all the time.now i miss my family because i live in chennai doing my undergrad in IIT MADRAS. i did my schooling in vijayawada in donbosco high school till 9th and then three years of hardwork fetched me a seat here.so most of my life(18yrs) was spent there and i cherish every moment i njoyed with my family and friends. my childhood woudnt have been as njoyable without my grandparents.they are very much responsible for watever i am today.

my school days.......those were the best days of my life..(remember the summer of 69')

i was the topper in the class every year and i njoyed a good impression among my teachers.

i had a batch of very good friends:koundinya(still one of my best frnds),kishore,ravikanth,krishna murthy..

my school days were as eventful as anybody elses...i had a crush on a senior girl..i bunked classes for annual day function preparations every yr.i was(sorry' am') a singer and because i was good at acads i used to get the chance to host.

football matches in the large ground..cricket after school hours... journey in the school bus(2 hours a day)...card games...petty fights over petty matters...doin things to impress girls(in 9th and 10th only,till then i was innocent:))...attending singing competitions with my CRUSH...and a lot more sweet memories.

coming to 10th standard i became more serious abt acads as it is the time wen ppl here in our state think about SETTLING IN LIFE:) and postpone everything else.

not much to say about the next three years though that was the time i evolved into wat i am from wat i had been in school.this time i had another batch of very good friends:srikar,kiran,hanu,bharat,avinash,bharat raj,chaitu,deepthi...we njoyed a lot of the small amount of time we used to get apart from studies.the way we neglected the language classes...the way we teased the lecturers...the hostel enviro....the comments we used to make on the other half of the class...the way we used to assign ranks to ourselves...jokes unsharable...another summer of 69 i guess::) with a decent rank in jee i then got through the gates to the institute i always dreamt being a part of.

After an initial uneasiness of being a freshie i got accomodated into a congenial atmosphere of new friends,new place,a new start...here too i got a new bunch of good friends with whom i shared a good rapport.my iit experience apart from academic(hey did i think of acads in iit..im sorry) gave me a lot of events to cherish...my first year was more eventful with my roommates sriram,senti and hostelmates..bhima,ganesh,anish,aadi,smylee.the year was full of activities. For the first time in iit a batch had been reshuffled and unlucky that i was a part of that. I moved into a new hostel and consequently but sadly i missed most of these friends who had been moved into other hostels. Three years of my stay in the new hostel got me a lot more than i expected. A new batch of friends...naveen,nikhil,ravi,sasank,sharath,tejaswi,sundeep,vamshi,prabhu,robo,kurse,....three years is sufficient time to know ppl to the core.so it is quite obvious that we become very good frnds..infact best... wait for the update because next year i am moving out of this campus and ill be in a new environment with new friends.lots of events......